`~F L Y~` away from all the pain.....~~

2006-11-17T02:26:00.000-08:00

The light at the end of the tunnel

Travelling, walking, strolling I am
On a journey along a dimly lit path
I seem to have lost my way
There seems to be no way out

A harsh long stare across
A light at the end of the tunnel
I have seem to found my way
Out of this dark cold tunnel

The light at the end of the tunnel
How warm it feels upon my skin
Yet, so much I shiver from its touch
Why is this so?

Journeying for decades
Looking for something I never knew
Searching for an answer, to what I wish to know
Getting lost within myself

Stuck within a cave
Lightless, lifeless
Surrounded by nothing
All that's left is a path

Along the path I sprint
Hoping to find my answers
At the end of my long dark journey
I see a bright light calling for me

The light at the end of the tunnel
How warm it feels upon my skin
Yet, so much i shiver from its touch
What is this light?

My great escape
I ran from it all
Hoping for a brighter future
I journeyed for this light

My shivers have been answered
For my answers have been found
Beyond the light of the tunnel
Lies a blizzard awaiting me

The coward that ran away
The fool to challenge the world
The lover whose heart was broken
The wimp, unable to stand up to it all

All that lies beyond the tunnel
Is a world of hurt, punishment, to me
For running away
For running away...

2006-10-03T01:56:00.000-07:00

My discovery, My liberty
U found me, u taught me to fly
Its now or never, I am gonna try
To leave this pain, for now, goodbye...

Hey guys... restarted the tag.. smeth happened to my acct in floober... well... nevermind... hahas restarts cme with bangs.. to go with you...

Do NOT underestimate the beauty thats around you... you just never know...

Building a Bridge of 7 Colors

Building a bridge of 7 colors
The task he would take his life to complete
He risked rain and shine to make it fine
The bridge of 7 colors it was

Building the bridge of 7 colors
He worked day and night
As the schedule was tight
He sacrificed all his time

Building the bridge of 7 colors
Forsaking his family at home
His daughter cried and cried
But he never knew

Building the bridge of 7 colors
Initial plans were straight
But towards the end, he saw his daughter's face
And decided on a new shape

Building the bridge of 7 colors
Only to be awed by all
But few came to know
The pain his family felt

Building the bridge of 7 colors
A bridge which was meant to be straight
The artist put an arc into it
To show his daughter's displease

Building the brigdge of 7 colors
The finest bridge to ever be
No one could come close to matching it
For love was what he filled it with

2006-09-26T02:56:00.000-07:00

Flying high above the clouds in the morning sky
Resistances around me make it difficult to fly
A climb to the top I did
Staying at the top I bid
With my life I will, till the end
Stay at the top, and set the trend
For future to come, for generations to come
My song they will sing, my tune they shall hum
I will stay at the top till the very end

Flying high above the clouds in the morning sky
Staying at the top, till the day i die
That is the dream I hold close to my heart
That is the goal I will never part
Climb to the top I will,
Stay at the top, that is the deal

Flying high above the clouds in the morning sky
Keeping pace with friends, our tie
I will stay at the top, till the very end
But not without friends, to share glory with
We stand together hand in hand
I am the blade and they are the sheath
Without each other, we fall down the ring
With each other, we shall be the king!

SLC

2006-06-02T21:06:00.000-07:00

woohoo... slc has ended.. so many ended up in tears las nite.. esp the OT (organising team).. but who could blame them... they worked for 7mths.. had many sleepless nites.. just to make the event a success... cheers to the OT!!!! they rox!!!! hahas... i just wish there was more we could do to show them our appreciation.. cus.. altho they kip saying that there are screw ups.. I DUN SEE THE SCREW UPS!!!! that is how gd the ot is...!!!!!!!! 3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for OT!!!!!

My SLC

These days we spent together
This time we spent with each other
The hours we had
The laughters we shared
Thank you all for this convention
My team i will never forget, the IMPRESSIONS!

Appreciation Note

This is a token of appreciation
For helping us organise this convention
So fast these 4 days past
But forever would this memory last
For SLC we worked together
Till strangers became friends forever

Ending note...(the worst i have )

The ending was a feeling of bitter sweet
No memory can ever replace it
They worked 7 long months together
To make sure we would remember
The time they spent,
The games they planned
We thank them this very day
For everything they did till today
They helped make friends from all over
They made sure we had fun with each other
A bow or two,
From us to you
To end it off, lets make it three
Thank you Thank you Thank you OT!!!

Thats the end of the poems i have for SLC 2006... as fac of Impressions.. i must sae.. I AM PROUD OF YOU MY TEAM!!!! as a fac .. i must sae.. THANK YOU OT FOR THIS CHANCE!!! i hope through the poems.. wad i feel is shown to you all... cus.. well... im nt good at showing my feelings ya?? =) thank you all.. hve a nice time... Friends forever till the very end... Walking down the streets hand in hand Looking at the clear night sky I feel as though i can fly My friends i made, from SLC Thank you all, you've let me see Light, light of such gentle warmness In life, never have i felt such happiness Thank you all once again, You've taken away my pain =)) )

haish

2006-05-09T01:59:00.000-07:00

its realli realli veri borin.. cant schools jus come up with newer and better ways to assess us on how much we have learnt and understood in class other than by goin thru the test??? i mean thru the test all u noe is whether the student is able to pen down what he learnt in class. He may be able to write down the model answer.. bt wad if it was memorised?? there has to be a better way to assess a students progress... like holding events.. or hands on pracs.. or stuff as such. i mean... you learn better when u are doin it wad... why do they sae learn from mistakes... cus u hve to do smth in order to learn wad.. if u are cooped up in ur stuffy classroom listening to lessons or doing a test.. what is there to learn? what is there to understand? it is a super protected environment... it aint gonna prepare us for the real ting ya noe... haish...

aniwae.. i came up with something lame yet again.. till the next time.. enjoy...

It takes two hands to clap,
More than a day it took to build Rome
To fly two wings to flap
Ten years not enough to make me call here home

Across the rainbow to the gold
Down the well for drinking water
Something precious for me to hold
For you my dear, my determination won't waver

In life many stubborn obstacles
In life many wonderful miracles
For you I stumbled through hardship
For we shall enjoy on our luxury loveship

abit crappy eh.. sorri ah.. so crappy i cant tink up a title for it.. can u? help me :-)

Actual Results

2006-04-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

Well my predictions werent that far off eh... onli that i overestimated our sch alil.. hahas

Actual Results

Cdiv: CHamps -- SJI
2nd place -- ACS(I)
3rd place -- HCI

Bdiv: Champs -- ACS(I)
2nd place -- SJI
3rd place -- HCi

Gers

TMS -- Double champs

See aint i rite? u jus hve to see the first dae of heats and u more or less can predict alreadi.. aint this wad i said abt las yr too? hahahaha ok.. nvm long story cut short.. nxt yr bdiv gt a veh difficult battle to fight... lets go! FIGHT HARD GUYS!!! (while i slack... anywae thats wad u guys keep tellin me to do.. =.= )

hahas start plantin ur trees ppl!

Canoeing.. Fun? or Boring?

2006-04-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

well im here again to rant and rant and rant on about my hates and dislikes.. today the topic shall be canoeing...

ok its not that i hate or dislike canoeing.. bt to an extent i find it boring to the spectators as well as competitors... thats y i seldom go down for training... hahahs... ok thats besides the point.. my point is...

1) why do u tink so many ppl go and see soccer matches???
2)why is there so big a crowd at the NBA stadiums????

because the matches are fast, the skills are fascinating... decisions on court/field can be seen to be made asap... thats what makes it exciting.. the "unclearness" of who the fair winner is.. therefore... the crowd is often kept in suspense until the final second when someone makes a shot and poof its in!!! thats wad makes the crowd cry and shout and go hooray at the end of the day.. but for canoeing.. maximum 7mins spent on water in each race.. u paddle ur heart and lungs and intestines out.. but wad happens? u jus cross the finishing line first...= .= thats all.. the skill isnt realli impt if ur pure brute strength is there to knock your opponents out... pure skill isnt gonna get u too far man... unless ur lvl of skill is close to that of da pros... and even such.. the skill of the strokes .. i mean as a spectator.. uve seen em once.. uve seen em all.. get wad i mean??? its like.. alrite all enter water infront.. pull back wif arms and body... then exits using the shoulders... and the point of it being exciting is??? seeing ppl capsize??? i tink not... precisely due to this.. thats why i find it a bore..

therefore to try and regenerate my interest in canoeing.. i shall look into all the different bt very similar styles of paddling that each coach teaches his students.. and try to come up wif something that is purely my own.. and i shall name it da "Slack Stroke" hahahas... but yar.. gotta get the interest back.. frens sae i gt potential.. coach not gettin angry at my pontangs.. chers being veri patient wif me... i mus at least try to do my best rite??? hahas. hope so bah... then prob next yr can take part.. and try to at least enjoy canoeing for once... b4 i leave it for gd... hahas...

Prediction:

C Div Champs: SJI
2nd : HCI
3rd: undecided

B Div Champs: ACS (I)
2nd: HCI/SJI
3rd: HCI/SJI

Girls C DIV
who cares... i didn even notice Cdiv race... lol

Girls B Div Champs: TMS/BGSS

the res i dunno le.. besides this 4 still gt wad??? hahs

Forever Love

2006-03-13T21:52:00.000-08:00

Forever Love

Deep in my heart my soul my love
Deep in the canyons of my life
Brought about by the hunger and wait
Brought to life by the desire

Turn it all off this negativity
Bring it on the light of tomorrow
Never give up even in adversity
Forever believe that hope will follow
Blood may be spilled and the river flows
Death maybe upon us, all this sorrow
But remember this for now and tomorrow
Our love together is forever even if there aint tomorrow

Catch the light of the falling sun
Teach the joy and laughter and fun
Our friends family enemies too
Show them the strength between two
The love of two forever tied
The love of theirs never tried
Challenge this love do you not
For the sky will drop upon u and rot

Taken away from the comfort of crowd
Taken away from the positivity of life
Taken away from what seems to be all
But even so our love will not stall
Forever together thats what we dreamt
Stronger than ever thats what it meant

Strong Love????

2006-03-13T21:41:00.000-08:00

Does love cause hurt? (Strong love)

Never really thought about this
Never really believed of us

Our hearts melt to form one
But is this truly what we want
Deep down inside a slight twitch
At the back of my mind a lil itch
Maybe this was not meant to be
Maybe we paid too high a fee
Your life your freedom
Together with mine, our kingdom
The lives lost in the making of this
After all is it all worth this kiss
Is our love the reason for the misery
Does our love cause the world to be so sorry

Forever together that was what we meant
Together is what we call home, that was what we dreamt
Take it back, take this love away
Remove the world from misery, do not sway
Our love's end is the worlds beginning
Maybe not now, but the future is blurring
The end might be now my dear
But our future is not over, dont tear

Never really thought about this
Never really believed of us
Our love would cause such demise?
But we won't part forever i promise

Chronicles of Sabah

2006-03-13T21:03:00.000-08:00

The Chronicles of Sabah a long story of the adventures of several Elements who ventured out of the safety of their harbour into a new land, Sabah. The trip, was met with much enthusiasm of the Elements, who believed that this would be one of fun, adventure and self-discovery. However, they were all unaware of the works and ideals of one particular Element, JG.

On their first day there, the Elements met up with their guides. The ones who would bring them through and teach them about how they are going to survive the following 8 days in Sabah. The camp, is said to make you turn out a stronger better man, or exposethe weakness and fragility of yourself. The first day, and it already brought much fear into the hearts of these seemingly strong youths.

The Elements have to brave the weather and nature, to prove their abilities as a team, as an individual in the coming 8 days.

On their first day of true adventure, the Elements were tasked to hike through a rather dense jungle to the top of this little hill within the jungle to find their campsite. A hike, which would take them 3hours at the very least. Climbing through the dense vegetation, the group, led by Q, went at an immense pace, covering up for lost time, lost when they took wrong turns. The pace was so immense, that the other elements had to push themselves past what was previously their limits to keep up with the hiking genuis BBX. However, 2 hours into the hike, Element JG shows the first signs of his "ideals". He sounded off, for he had lost his chronlogical device. As a team, the Elements stopped their hike. The team spread out through the jungle, some backtracked down the hill to search for this lost device. All JG did was to sit down where we stopped and waited for everyone. His help was truly that HELPFUL as we all should know better. After 30minutes of search, we decided to call of the search, and proceed in the hike without the aid of the chronological device.

Climbing up the hill, everyone was tasked to carry with them a group item. Or to be exact food ration or water ration for everyone to last the day and night. The Element, JG, carried along about 2 or 3 litres out of the total 20litres for the group 14 elements. However, JG had other plans for these litres of water. Through the hike, JG finished all the water ration, he was carrying, on his own. Killing the team of available water supply the following night, making cooking a difficult task for everyone. We all ate our first meal of the camp, cooked by ourselves, without water to drink.

This is only the beginning of it all

2nd wk

2006-01-13T06:34:00.000-08:00

its official.. i hve survived the second week of school!!! mwahahaha!!! hahas.. theres about 36 weeks left in this school years i tink.. that translates to about.. hmm 180days?? LOL so lil left... and this is including public hols leh.. so tink if i remove the hols.. =))

wah bt this week very tired... gah gah... wah... monday still ok larh.. aft school session until 3 onli.. can tahan.. tues.. hmm public hols leh... gt trng.. ok.. wah that one was tiring >.<... then came wednesday.. meeting until about 5++ i had to leave early... cus of sme tuition thing la... then thursdae.. wah this dae was veh tired!!! >.<>.<>.<>.<> etc etc.. bt i needa catch ALL the CMC ppl liao.. if nt gone.. >.< wah sian.. mus rush rush rush work work work!!! ah-ha! then went for bombers dinner wif sis and sean.. to "celeb her passing of final theory in drivers ed + my bdae.." heh.. ok...

thats all folks.. till nxt time!

How was your week?

Regards
Fly

first wk DONE

2006-01-05T05:57:00.000-08:00

hmm its close to the end of the 1st wk of sch... 2006...!!! approx 37weeks left for us here.. and probably 36 because of all the extra public hols.. etcetc...

well aniwaes.. the first wk of school was veri hectic.. >.<> well SO FAR it seems all is going "fine" cus well almost all pics are in.. and im passing the photos to the CMC tmr for their work.. which is to be handed in BY SATURDAY to me. then i pass it to the teachers in charge... yar... hmm but set back.. the worst evr... tmr is the end of the week.. prob no one else would b in sch on sat.. then the guy who is holding on to the pics of ALL sec2 students.. fell ill today.. and i hve nt been able to contact him AT ALL... so i dunno if he has passed the pics ovr to the sec2 cmc or not.. worrying worrying >.<

however, i do hope for the best.. yarh.. i hope..

aniwae.. i was too tired to go for guit lesson today.. aft trng... so yarh.. super tired lorh >.< gahgah... guess im gonna slp earlier todae...

how was your dae?

Regards
FLY

boredom

2006-01-03T06:23:00.000-08:00

hi all....

first day of school... all ovr.. tis yr for once, i m nt hvin ani comittee powers in the class.. however.. i still plae a role in the consortium council... so my first council roles were played todae.. 1st. guide in sec1 march in in the morning. then 2nd. i/c of phototakin of ortus students (sec1s- 4s)... so i was basically running ard for the whole dae... snappin the cam... the 1st duty would b completed tmr... aft the AAR... the second.. i gotta make sure all the classes submit their photolists to me by tis coming fridae.. which.. i feel is impossible.. but i hve ta try... sians... aniwae.. how was your first day of sch? hahas...

cool day cool start
its a beginning its the ortus heart

Regards
FLY

Glitches

2006-01-01T22:42:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, i hv noticed that there mite b a few problems with the skin so if u see sme probs pls inform me via email @ lonely_loid@hotmail.com

thank you veri much

regards
FLY

2006

2006-01-01T06:51:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2006... goodbye 2005..
lets leave behind unhappi past and keep the memories for it would be these memories which remind us of our mistakes the past year and would prevent us from making the same ones again. lets take our experiences to a new year.. a year of fun filled activities.. a year of sorrow and pain.. a year of experience.. use this chance and opportunity to open up our lives..

My New Year Resolution:
Come up with 5 new poems
Make at least 1 new friend each month
Get back my 2.00 MSG

well ive set my target.
Have you?

Go on lets all set our targets. Make them easy to fulfill.. for each time you fulfill a target.. sense of satisfaction would rush through you.. urging u to go out and fulfill more tasks.. to set higher targets for yourself.. to change yourself into a more efficient worker.

I have said my piece. So heres smth i jus thot off..

A new chapter begun this 2006
2005 now a distant memory
Lets start anew, on this journey
The time has come to start again
Dun let Winter bring you pain
Instead let it teach you well
Let Spring and Autumn's stories tell
Of flowers leaves soil and sticks
Summer would keep you warm and well
Away from sickness or any ill

hais

2005-11-14T07:07:00.000-08:00

ah crap.. no new poems in the pass dunno how long?! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG im losing it!!!! i need inspiration!!!! hais... gotta do my bez.. gotta cme up wif smth new.. i gotta try!!!!

aniwae.. jus been to india for 18daes and now im back larh.. so brief summary of wad went on...

Day 1
Arrival at Delhi airport... hmm it isnt like singapore where the airplane connects to the gate lar.. erm u gotta get off the plane then aft that u take tis bus to the airport. the bus is very crowded.. hais.. and when i was there it was veryvery warm... >.< so was sweatin like crazy... k then erm aft all the mumbo-jumbo at the airport... we took a coach ride down to the hotel lar.. Sahara Restaurant Complex or smth like that i tink... the hotel is inside it.. and wow was the hotel beautiful!!! it was like.. super grand.. almost like the hotel i was in when i visited Lancaster County in USA june tis yr... there we had awhile to refresh... then off we went to see monuments and attractions ard delhi... the one which cpatured my attention most was the India Gate... it looked superb ... and there were names of the soldiers who fought on behalf of India in World War 1 (then it was a colony of Britain) so it was very beautiful.. then we saw the roadside hawkers.. and.. so long as they notice u are a tourist they will swarm towards u and convince u to buy their stuff... bt my advice is DUN BUY... cuz it will cause more hawkers to stampede towards u... so aft that we went bac to Sahara for our dinner then we went for debriefing b4 slpin.. yar... (debrief was almost evry single night...)

day 2
woke up... gt changed... and off we were.. on the coach riding towards ghaziabad.. so we rode towards Uttam Girls' School where abt 50 of their students and teachers were waiting for us... for sme reason we ended up 3 hrs late.. >.<>.<>

day 3
er... went down to the sch... erm.. had sme fun then left for delhi to visit the cottage industries.. spammed on their stuff there... bought abt 60 sgd worth of stuff there.. and then went to dilli hart and bought more stuff.. including a kurta.. which later i wore at nite at their carnival... ... at nite we were introduced in front of the whole sch to the parents and the guests... so played the whole nite lorh.. bt was quite bad larh... the weather was very very very very cold... and the kurtas were quite thin then we didn eat aso larh.. hahas.. and i was coughin veri veri badly thruout the carnival.. so i went back coughinl.... so that was wad happened.. go back.. debrief took medicine... then i slept.. was shiverin veri veri veri veri veri badly the whole nite.... i curled up like a prawn.. covered myself in 2 towels a quilt and my jacket and was still shivering like crazy... this was when i gt worried....

day 4
woke up still shivering like mad.. wif a veri veri veri bad headache... base on experience i assumed i was sick.. so i went to call mum to ask where she kept my thermometer larh... hmm found it in my bag.. took it out and took my temperature... wad was it??? a cool 39.3 deg celsius!!! hahas... so i had to excuse myself frm that daes trip... i stayed at the house the whole dae.. slpin for more than half of it.. my muscles were aching like mad.. bt i thot i could still handle it... then into the aftnn... my temp went down to abt 38.3 ... was quite happi.. had my meal then went to slp again... was woke up by a nurse who gave me sme medicine.. took them and went to bed.. again... slp slp slp slp.. thats all i did.. hahas... bt when i woke up in late aftnn.. my temp was 39.9... so i decided to consult mum and my fren again.. and since both of them gave the same advice... to put a wet towel ovr my head... so i did that.. and temp went down to 38.6 for the nite... sheesh...

day 5
hmm woke up.. and took my temp.. 39.6.. >.<>.<

day 6
woke up wif slight fever still hangin on... so i stayed on... bt then later in the aftnn i felt ok.. so the ma'm at the sch sent sme1 down to pick me up and send me to sch to join the guys... n the gals... hahas... so i learnt how to make rangoli... saw the guys takin a dance class wif the gers... etc etc... alot of activities.. then went bac that nite to rest....

ok thats all i will cover todae.. quite tired alreadi... >.< cover the other 12 daes another time then... cya soon....

poems poems poems poems

2005-08-17T02:12:00.000-07:00

why talk abt my life when its so boring
heres sme poems, i wrote before sleeping

Winter Changes to Spring

summer mornings bright and shining
winter nights cold and shivering
spring noons beautiful and colorful
autumn days lonely yet wonderful

I am stuck, within what is winter
the losing of her, my pain only greater
my winter is cold and shivering
the emptiness in my heart chilling

you came, you saw and you brought me up
your smile, your stlye, i won't give up
you came and saw and changed it all
winter changed to spring yet wonderful like fall

summer mornings bright and shining
winter nights empty and chilling
spring noons beautiful and warming
autumn days wonderful and loving

My Love, Is it True?

fire in the night a flickering
the man came to my door a knocking
your time is up that said he
wash away your hopes they never be

your love is gone and now your turn to go
complete the cycle get in the flow
the cycle of life she'll never return
like animals and bones and flowers and fern
the cycle of life she'll never return

give up your believes and accept your fate 10
the girl of your dreams your wish to date
her with the smiles of warmth and love
they are all gone flown like the dove

no! shes here i know she is
she promised she would be back for this 15
my graduation my release
she promised she would give me the kiss
the kiss to me it really is

don't tell me to stop, don't make me give in
i will never stop the hope and trust within 20
my love for her it will never stop
my love for her will bring me to the top

for the last time your love is gone
no shes not she won't leave me alone
you heard what she said over the phone 25
she was still sick, in her throat a sore
she said shes sick, too sick in fact she said she was gone

is it true, what this man says
my dear isit true, u've lost your days
i cant bear, to let you leave 30
my love, my life, please take my life and live

In Me

In my heart i see your face
In reality you leave no trace
Take me back to when it had start
So I can prevent the future part

In my dreams i hear you calling
In my face you said you were leaving
Release me from my hell hole now
Though you are gone I'd keep my vow

In my mind you are my love
In my life you're gone like a dove
Filled with coldness my empty heart
Drowned with loneliness since the part

In my eyes you're still my dear
In actual fact I would secretly tear
Tell me how i can get you back
Although my thinking is far off-track

Lost Within

lost within this trapped soul of mine
lost within this warped hope of mine
lost within the warm love you once gave
lost within the dark emptiness you had left

lost within the deep hole you threw me in 5
lost within this cold prison i trapped myself in
lost within the much trust i had in you
lost within the believe i had in two

lost within this unwanted greed to ask for more
lost within this everlonging lust for us all 10
lost within the harvest of our love
lost within the flying of the dove

Help me, aid me

help me, give me a new reason to start
aid me, heal that open wound on my heart

guide me, bring me to my new horizon
teach me, educate me on everthing under the ozone
take me, take me away to that faraway place 5
show me, show me your angelic face

give me, give me that smile i long to see
change me, change it from me to we
forever me, forever be with me i bid
nevermind me, just friends i plead 10

help me, give me a new reason to start
aid me, heal that open wound on my heart

yup thats all ... so sad.. so few.. so sad quality is so bad.!!!! :'(...

need professional criticism frm u guys/gals again =D

term test.

2005-07-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

woots.. todae eng term test... 4 compo qns....

1. imagine one incident whereby u did something you would not usually do and in the end you get rewarded for doing it.

2. u were told that you have onli 48hours left to live. describe your experience

3. discuss the problems a teenager faces

4. explain the importance of preserving endangered animals.

we all had a bet.. on which qns thou who shalt not be named would do... we decided.. on qns 3 unanimously... bcuz we felt that thou who shalt not be named would have lotsa things to write about especially since he/she/it/shit thinks that his teenage life is so screwed up and havin bad frens ard.

so no one won the bet.. cuz evry1 voted for the same option.. nxt time we hve to cap the amt of votes per option.. >.<

well i did qns 4... and i wrote out qns 1 - 3 in poem format.
i wrote crap for qns 4 and i think that im dead larh... i tink im gonna fail the term test.. :( but alas.. walkin awae from an exam room with 3 new poems.. its quite a bonus to my failure dun u think? haha

heres poem for qns 1

That night was stormy, dark and cool
I saw it lyinh out like a fool
Shivering and wheezing was what it did
This was a good chance for a good deed

Despite myself, despite my allergy
I took it home, this cute lil puppy
I never once did this, even in dreams
For I never cared and just ate ice-creams

I washed it dry and kept it warm
I fed it, played with it and named it Tom
Tom was brown and cuddly too
I noticed his collars, around his neck were two

With efforts in the days to come
His family i had found
Without saying goodbye, it was farewell
But that puppy and I had a swell.

Qns 2

Cancer, thats what I had
Death was inevitable he said
48hours i was given
To enjoy my life till the last moment

Unable to stand and climb this wall
I cower unther the sheets awaiting death's call
The bells rang slowly
The hours passed sparingly
Each minute and second i counted
Build up the fear i had concocted

With diseases like this
What ever the use of doctors
Death, part of my life it is
Youth, is what i bring to my ancestors

Qns 3

13, 14 , 15, 16
Young teenagers around the streets
Jumping and playing with their friends
Looking and enjoying many treats

Problems they face, big and small
From wanting to look good and growing tall
BGR and best friend policies
Troubling the minds of these young atrocities

Pressure from parents
Pressure from school
Having to make ammendments
For failing in school

Thats the life of teens today
Not like the past with some happy and gay
Homework projects don't elude us
To survive out there we have to be fast

Hoping to live thru to adulthood
Our friends ease our pain they are good.

k thats all.. waddya tink? do post your comments and criticisms.. bt nt too harsh for im still a novice kay? thnx!

lalala

2005-07-09T20:41:00.000-07:00

haish sianz... im damn damn damn bored larh... sianz sianz sianz... and louisa..... if im gay there wun b no mummy meanin i picked u ppl frm the streets.. :P

hehe.. kk evil me...

im bored larh.. update when i feel like it... =D

testin

2005-06-16T03:18:00.000-07:00

this post is a testing post.

USA..

2005-06-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

hahas.. k k erm.. USA.. actualli is manhattan new york.. :p

most of the time in USA was spent there. the other half was spent at washington and pennsylvania and philadelphia.

well new york is much like singapore.. tall buildings all ard.. plus they are REAL skyscrapers. the city is quite ez to navigate cuz it was laid out veri veri orderly. and jus walking down the same street like 2 to 3 times and u noe how to walk around tt area alreadi. and the weather there.. was shiok!!! at least for the first few daes.. aft tt.. bcme so humid... like singapore!! >.<> i watched the phantom of the opera at the majestic theatre there.. it was was realli realli nice!! hahas.. they sang so beautifully on stage.. their voice was much much betta then ani choirs i hve heard.. and the music and melodies they used were veri sweet and gentle..

in short it jus rox.. hahas

i dunno wad else u ppl wan to noe.. all i can sae is tat... the old leaders of USA luv sayin the word "liberty". hahas.. tell me wad else u wanna noe.

haha

2005-05-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

felix bac. pw changed. jevon u cant hack me animore!!!

i luv chattin wif this person hu tags my blog.. its like freakin fun.. hahas.. cuz well.. two sides to a coin.. wadda nice phrase, me bein an ignorant person would then like to noe.. doesnt that mean that not all the blame of the brk up is mine?? hahas... and hvin this ignorance within me i would like to question if by sayin that one is faithful, u mean that one doesnt have trust in his/her partner rite? and hvin two sides to a coin.. tts so cool.. the head and the tail.. i would like to see the tail end of your story too u noe..

of cuz i noe its my fault it happened, im nt askin for her to share fault, but as her fren u shud noe she hates flirts too. pls correct me if im answerin to the rong thing.,,

another ting, with two sides to a coin, whether its heads or tails there aso has to b clear indication, so pls b clear who u wanna target when u sae flirt.. not clear in a wae that u mention the name, but avoid givin me da impression that u are targetin my god-daughters or godsisters..

i luv tokin wif ya.. do tag more.. and correct me.. cuz in this reply i manipulater the words "there are 2 sides to a coin", if u have read properly so correct me if i havent answered ur qns.. cuz well.. im ignorant.. =D

2005-05-20T20:22:00.000-07:00

Helllo....

And...I'm not Felix . I'm Felix's classmate who happens to find his blog password!

I'll also present this post in a very hate-able tone lol. Why? Dunno, just thot I should haha. Perhaps cause its more....unique? :S . Bah and I shouldn't have toldya I'm not Felix. Hope some people doesn't believe that and that this sentence is plain reverse psychology...

Wanna know his password? All you havto do...is chekc his fone, I found that out cus today I was lookin thru his fone and I saw this contact named....KZM xP haha but that's not veh important, cus there's another one named blog password! Wooohoooo~

Or maybe i'll just post his password HERE.....hrmm...see if I'm feeling evil.

K I am, abit. So ere's ur first clue.

Small clue 1. There are...8 characters in it.

So....let's see if I feel evil again later on.

Aniwae I shouldn't have told Felix that I had his password....its lyk he would be shocked to see this totally lame post, and if he actually visits my blog, then he'll find out for himself who hacked into his account. Haishh, so this wont be as fun (for me, that is) as I wanted it to be...

Small clue 2. It contains only numbers.

Felix is soo....not going to screw me up for this. Felix ,don't delete this post, okay? And I'm not feeling particularly evil so i'll just give smalllllll clues. Heh.

Since I'm here...might as well make it nice. So...here's a short and lame riddle.

For those of you that have never heard of it....it goes smthing lyk

There was this monkey and a bird on a tree branch. There was a gunshot and after that, the bird died and the monkey's nose was bleeding. Why?

...
...
...

Got the answer? It don't make sense, really. In fact, it'll leave you cold.

Before that, here's the 3rd small clue.

Small clue 3. The sum of the numbers add up to 32

As for the riddle...it's because....
The bullet hit the bird ( so it died....dohh...) and at that time the monkey was digging his nose and so he was shocked when he heard the gunshot and...he stuck his finger too far in! XD. Whoa I'm glad this isn't my blog.

But I've asked for Felix's permission to post this update so...I hope he doesn;t delete this post (:

Small clue 4. 32 is divisible by 2.

Yes, that is a clue ((:. Really it is, just figure out what it means...

Why am I doing this post? Cause I'm bored and I don't feel like blogging in my blog haha. Somehow this feels different but I just dont know why........right Felix?

See, I put ur name with a capital "F" . Don't say I don't respect you hor...?

So, now I'm feeling reallllly guilty. And to end this off, I'll end up with one final small clue xP . How contradicting.

Small clue 5. The order of his first four digits is ----> (prime number)(not prime number)(prime number)(prime number). Woooohoooooo!!

Guess I'll end here...hrmm...I wonder when Felix will find out about this post...

answer to tags

2005-05-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

to the first comment, made to obviously piss me off, i'd like to make a strong point that in my blog im not potrayed as the angel but the angel's tear, which by ani chance means that im the cause/part of the angels sadness, thank u veri much for givin me da platform to clear this misunderstanding anonymous

towards wad unknown said.. well.. in a wae u can sae that im a flirt.. yups.. all rite.. but id prefer if u specify whos at the other end of this flirt chain.. cuz well.. in the course of this short relationship, ive onli been tokin chattin goin out wif and mentioning abt my godsisters and god-daughters. i dun mind the insult towards me but what i cannt take lying down is the fact that u have indirectly insulted my godsisters and god-daughters. i would prefer if you would brush up on ur english b4 u tag me again cuz i do not wan ani big misunderstandings which i myself cant help clear

aft sayin all that, id like to point out, that since toking, chatting and going out wif my godsisters and god-daughters is flirting to you, theres is obviously no need for me to keep her as a godsister animore, cuz for all i noe, she hates flirts, so y cause her sme more hurt rite? im sure as a gd fren you would understand this. so if u read this, u would have alreadi guessed that well, she no longer has, in any form or method to contact me, and im sure that was your goal in taggin my blog.

ok aft clearin up the misunderstandings.. ppl came up wif another poem!!! for this poem.. i mus send out credits to Chau Ching To for reciting Answer to Marlowe durin Lit lesson... now for my lame poem.. hope u dun hate it to much.. XD

My Love for You Never Dies

Forever shall I be in denial,

As my love for you is eternal.

Let it go will I not ever,

My goal sees us pass life together.

My love forever it shall be,

Regardless whether its returned to me.

Thru thick and thin I'll be with you,

Thru present and future just me and you.

ok thanx... tt was it!! hahas.. came up wif this on wed.. but no mood to blog yestd aft seein the tags.. hahs.. thanx!

survival

2005-05-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

been put to 3 days and 2 nites of torture at sarimbun scout camp.. but ovrall i found it fun..

group name : ideetentee aka identity

but enuff abt camp.. time to tok abt me.. :D

todae.. went for golf trng... hvnt been there for 2wks liaoz.. so i thot standard drop like siao... then take the first few shots wif the 7-ion.. for real my standard drop.. 50m aso cant pass.. >.<.. but then aft tt.. i correct a few tings by myself and visualise tiger's swing.. then "BANG" i had consistent 130-150m shots wif the 7-ions!!! way above my norm of 110-120m!! then was damn damn happi lor.. then didn wanna change wif wedge stae on wif ion.. then go go go shoot shoot shoot.. then aft tt.. wad happen??? bang bang bang straight controlled shots at 140m!!! woohoo!!! to end off todaes golf training, went down t seletar country club.. to buy my FIRST set of golf clubs!!! Dunlop XT-i golf clubs!! 1 driver 2 woods 8-ions and 1 putter.. woohoo all mine!!! plusplusplus i got 24 new golfballs to plae wif!!! yesh!!!!!

then i found out which bowling ball coach rick chose for me to buy.. its either the savage flip bowling ball.. which is slightly purplish and bluish.. or the savage which is black blended in wif red.. well.. tts abt all.. though im now suffering from 2wks without bowling and half a mth without seeing her.. >.<>.< sighz.. bb...

hehe

2005-05-04T11:09:00.000-07:00

wellz.. i slept for 1 hr las nite.. awaiting her news.. it was no shock to me when she rejected me from havin another chance, i understand deeply why she came to that decision, my neglect was utter disgust so now im here all sad and depressed, lookin forward to another new day, with new chapters and new beginnings, i find it impossible to sleep tonite, with a void in my heart i feel ever so cold, no shoulders to lean on, i don't know. my legs are shaking, im breaking out in cold sweat, heres smth i came up wif in my moment of despair.

Depression, My Life, Thank you This is the End

as a chapter passes,

as a summer storm blows,

a new page is turned,

a new season would have begun.

don't dwell in the past

but live in the present

for the future,

as memories may have been fond

all good things would come to an end,

be it pebbles thrown into a pond,

or what you have trusted in a friend,

all good things would come to an end.

live and let live

learn to let go when the time is right

as honey from a bee-hive

and a boxer in a fight,

the towel has to be thrown in

don't let yourself be destroyed within

love is something unconditional

be it sorrow pain happy or joy

love is something international

it ain't some sort of ploy.

all memories so fond and great

would at the end be just memories

live and let live and start again

don't stop your life just cause of this pain

im standing alone in the rain

waiting for you to arrive on that train

remove this pain from within my heart

take away the emptiness i felt.

thank you ever so much,

for lending me a hand,

without further ado,

this is the end.

hehe haha

2005-04-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

y do i even bother putting up a strongfront? when frenz, or so u may call it, use this to their advantage? to take advantage of u even though they noe u are down and putting more weight onto you to squeeze u till ur pulp?
if it hasnt been the case for one, it has been for many, those silent tinkers who have a high tolerance to such behavior. well, sad to sae, im not one of them. its good enuff that i dun show my depression, my sadness and my upset to all my frenz, makin them feel at lost, making them feel upset that they cant help to cheer me up. but there are those who use this part of me, and i would repeat USE. i dunno wadz rong are they desperate for all simple options or are they jus waiting to find sme1 dumb enuff for them to dump all their responsibilities onto? or do they go ignoring you jus bcuz u are doin smethin tt upsets them much? or isit so that they wan your life all planned out by them all "their style" ? i wonder wad goes on in their heads.
when they get pissed off at me and starts shouting profanities and calling me names regardless of how i feel, wad would b my immediate reaction? i would nt fight fire wif fire i wouldnt argue bac. frenz is a term used for sme1 u care for and sme1 whos alwaes there for you, sme1 of much more importance then a spouse, a boyfren/gerfren or even partners. so y shud i argue bac/ defend myself? but letting this go on would let them have the idea that you could easily be bullied or taken advantage of. so wad is one left to do?
when im the one who has the temper, when im on one of my off daes, all the blame and fault comes fallin into me! as my frenz qns me on schoolwork, life and advice, when im down and unable to help them, when i sae i cant help u, wad would they do? fire bac at me and call me heartless, fire bac at me and call me jerk. wad can i do to let you blieve that i realli cannot help you? what the hell is rong wif you, tho my schedule mite be tite and i somehow fluked thru my tests in the term to achieve "gd" results, does that make me superman??? NO. i'd sae it again, NO! im not superman. i cant alwaes be in tt cheerful happy mood to cheer u up to b there for you or to help u wif stinking homework! i will die one dae and i suppose my "frenz" would cry cuz there aint no one left for them to take advantage of or do their hw for them? or to tell them the secrets of the universe?
i m NOT superman! so wad if i fluked thru my tests, so wad if i have a 10+2trng per wk schedule which effectively means i dun hve time to myself or home study?! THAT DOES NOT MEAN ANITHIN IF I CANNT MANAGE MY TIME RITE! I AM NOT SUPERMAN!
fine, ignore me all u wan, misunderstand me all you wan, i have a limit which i hve kept pushing this past few mths, but tt limit does not keep goin up! IT HAS TO STOP SOMEWHERE! SO WAD ARE YOU GOIN TO DO ABT IT?! I COULD CHOOSE TO JUS SHUT MYSELF FROM U ALL RITE?!
NOE YOUR PLACE AS A FREN TO ME, NOE YOUR PLACE AS A HUMAN BORN WIF A CONSCIENCE. FIND OUT WHY CERTAIN THINGS HAPPEN THIS WAY, FIND OUT WHY CERTAIN ANSWERS CANT BE GIVEN TO YOU. DISCOVER AND VENTURE FOR NEW WAYS FOR YOU TO IMPROVE URSELF AND HELP UR FRENS INSTEAD OF RELYING ON THEM, DISCOVER AND VENTURE HOW YOU COULD IMPROVE ON YOUR FRENSHIP. LOOK OUT FOR CHANCES FOR YOU TO PULL UR TIES CLOSER, DO NOT LOOK OUT FOR OPPORTUNITIES TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOUR FRENZ. GIMME A REASON TO PRAISE MY FRENZ SUCH AS THOSE FROM 1-4 WHEN I WAS IN P.SCH, GIMME A REASON TO LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU DAY BY DAY SUCH AS THE TIMES WHEN THE NSRCC SAILING TEAM WAS STILL TOGETHER.

FRENS are hard to come by, bf/gf come and go, spouses wun be wif u forever, but frenz be it dead or alive would be memories kept in your heart, the basic pillar of your life.
things dun alwaes happen the way you want it to be and Although memories may be fond, dun dwell in the past, instead live in the present FOR the future and let your memories and emotion guide you to do what's rite, for humans were born wif a conscience!

hahaha.. fresh beginnin.. hint hint

2005-04-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

well.. im a free man now!!! no longer clung on to that someone.. hahas...

the thing i dun get, what makes u think i dun luv u animore?? i've thrown tantrums, had quiet nites and even asked u to get another boyfren, but thats me, y cant u accept it aft we've been thru so much??? would you rather i be sme1 im nt? i wouldnt care if u had another boyfren cuz i noe that i wouldnt mind, so long as u noe that my love for you is there and forever will be there..
its not alwaes you see me moody and lazy to chat, y is it so that this time was so different?

wadeva it is, whom ever is at fault im goin to keep that promise i made to you, that you are the one and onli one ger i would luv in my life

guess wad?

2005-04-11T06:07:00.000-07:00

i've come to terms that i wouldnt infringe on douglas' case studies and anythin else so to view his complete research on trends in schools nowadays please visit Douglas

well.. case studies are very boring indeed but im getting bored nowadays due to the fact that im falling back into depression. i tink i mite use the time i get off from missing trainings or extra hours that i have aft my work to work on my own titles of case studies. to begin my series of case studies i would work on the title which revolves round me and several teenagers the most, Depression. i would need some time to do this so meanwhile watch out for more lame posts... :D

gettin lame again

2005-04-04T05:49:00.000-07:00

ok... well jus been to douglas blog and well i tink he has great potential in the research area.. onli tt he researched the rong stuff..

current stuff ive noticed tt he researched into depth are niaoism, zi bei and trends in school.. while trends in school mite lead to ground breaking ways for the Ministry of Education to revamp the school's outline and structure completely, allowing a more free environment for students to roam and study, freedom to all with the inclusion of certain responsibilities..

well... heres wad i feel about trends, though without ani evidence cus.. well.. no time to research...

1. Intro
Trends are becomin the latest fads and craze students are talking about. about 7 years ago, the trend for boys was digimon, and most girls tamagotchi. 5 years ago, it was the millenium bug and for guys again, its the tamiya cars making a breakthrough with the cartoon series "Lets and Go". Next just recently, it was the beyblades for guys. All these were worrying things for the parents as one trend leads to another as competition in the market heats up. However, on the other hand, school's are more focused on the longer-lasting trends which has set upon the students problems, or cause them to have misunderstandings in the public.
school's view
Low ankle socks, giving the impression that one does not take care of his/her appearance and doesnt care what others thinks of them.
Sling or low worn bags would send out the information of one being defiant, and again does not care if others think of them as sloppy and of having the aura of hooliganism.
Spiked/dyed hair is an outright way of saying "I don't give a damn what you say about it as this is my life!", although it could bring students more misfortunes, such as getting into unwanted conflicts, arguments or fights even. This could also lead one to use first impressionism to gauge what the person is like.
Tucked out shirt, crying to be different from the crowd and hoping to stand out and gain more attention. Though not a very serious crime in school if you arent a repeat offender.
Usage of profanities in school, would cause one and all to stare at you, giving you what is expected to be their fullest attention. This is to show your power over the students and show them that you are not at all affected by the fact whether the teacher is in class or not.
The last trend which arose most recently in our class, is a large serving of disrespect of the teacher. This is an utter disgrace to me, the class chairperson, it gives out the impression of rebellious hearts in the class and gives the perception of communism, equality between the students and teachers.

students view
Low ankle socks, low worn bags or slingbags, spiked/dyed hair, tucked out shirt, usage of profanities and being disrespectful of teachers, all these lie in a students eye as being cool, and hip in lessons and schools. They want to approach to the students as a big brother who is able to stand up to the teachers or public's criticisms and perceptions of them, so as to get a big and "powerful" posse, making them stand out amongst the rest.

2. a deep look inside

all that were mentioned above, could be thoughts ideas that has been passed from the previous generation of students, infecting more in the present times and if carried on to the future, could infect more than 50% of the population of students. This could in turn revolutionize schools in singapore to fit the "needs" of this out-of-control trends. Currently, revamps in the chinese teaching system has already shown the govt's first step into filling in for the student's "needs". A big "stop" sign has to be put up by the govt to stop these once and for all, as one bad seed spoils the crop. If the problems aren't stop here and now, it could infect more people. Unlike SARs, which is temporary, and having predictable outcomes, these trends arent temporary and have unpredictable outcomes that could lead to educational disasters. Possibilities of undesirable outcomes are too obvious, and chances of stemming the problem at the root of its cause are really very low.

im gettin bored rite now... lemme get more ideas and possibly come up wif new ideas in the near future as i did all this off hand wif no prior preparations. hope to come up wif a proper research on this in the near future,

another lame poem!!!

2005-04-01T22:41:00.000-08:00

heres another lame poem.. how i feel rite now lar..

depression

as depression starts to sink in,

its hell i feel im within.

remove this wretched guy i am,

from this world so fine, a curse i am.

Joy to the world the cursed is gone.

Its peace and fun all around again.

im bored!!!1

2005-03-27T04:10:00.000-08:00

kk as u all noe.. im bored!!! so yar here are two poems i whipped up.. one for myself the other for my godsis to hand in as her hw.. here is wad i call

back home

in the days of my darkness
when i experience nothing but coldness

a glimmer of hope rose
from the horizons.

it warmed my heart and caressed my skin
it was heaven i felt i was in

i could dance and sing the whole day long
and never feel that the day was really gone

from a deep dark well
i crept out and for the first time i felt life

i was resurrected and brought new hope
it was a feeling never felt

lifted from down under
to the clouds above

im in utopia
my life and my love,

I am bac home!

yar erm tts it.. pls tell me wad u feel of it alrite? heres another.. wad i call

"crap german homework"

we are, like the sun and the sky,

companions for life

you, are the pillar of my world,

standing with me through my hardships

we will be together regardless of obstacles or pain

i pledge by the blood that drips from my wound

forever together shall we be

ok tts it.. comments comments comments.. :D

hi all

2005-03-27T03:58:00.000-08:00

hey im bored again.. and yar.. my godsis and god-daughter mention liaoz.. i gt third in the race.. bt jiawei still nt happi lar.. cuz cuz.. we didn do like jus slightly betta and bcuz of tt our sch gt last lar.. then the boat we sent tt was suppose to get gold... well they capsized... yar.. then erm.. CSC bowling team played their best and closest game yestd... altho we didn reclaim ani of the lost points and lost another 5 points, we have actualli improved so veri much!!! tis cmin wkend we are bowling at SRC.. my own club.. wish i can plae there.. =D for obvious reasons lar.. and yar we are bowlin against SRC too.. one of the strongest teams too... sighs...

hmm screwed up todaes race also lar.. cuz.. well.. I HATE SAILING!!!! argh.. and erm.. yar im itchin to bowl again.. cuz i've jus improved my avg to 150+++ !!!!! yay!!!! hehe...

hmm yar.. i actualli cried for a ger laz fri nite... =(... and tt ger aint my gf.. haiz.. wadz rong wif me... can sme1 tell me...

im bored!!!

2005-03-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

hahas.. heh heh.. im bored!!! im goin mad!!!! IM GONNA SCREW UP TIS WK ENDS FINALS!!!! im gonna be LAST IN k2 100m!!!! JIA WEI GONNA KILL ME!!!! IM GONNA DIE!!! WOOTs!!!!

hehe haha terms.. :D:D:D

2005-02-23T02:55:00.000-08:00

hmm.. wadda i gotta sae... when u see me online dun ask me abt ani terms can..... damn sian lehz.. hahz.. my class term of CS is "Cock Smash" then erm.. the CS i use is "Commit Suicide" so dun mix up alrite??? ok hmm i did DAMN badly for tests this term.. damn pissed rite now bcuz my parents blame it on me nt prioritising... well its nt my fault tt i hve SUCHA DAMN TIGHT SCHEDULE evrydae of evryweek HOW TO PRIORITISE?! IM DAMN TIRED AND I GOTTA STUDY STILL WAD THE HELL!!!! U WAN ME TO PRIORITISE?! I TELL U NOW NO MORE SAILING U GET IT?! DAMN PISSED LAR!!!!!

DUNNO WHEN IM GONNA CS.. i guess SOON.. VERI VERI SOON... i dunno lar.. mayb i die? hahz. makes no diff rite.. aniwae u ppl all used to not having me.. blah blah.. then no jerk irritatin person left to piss u guys off... u shud all be veri happi lar hor.. :D i noe i will...

ok i tink tts all bahz...

hahas

2005-02-22T05:08:00.000-08:00

well hmm.. ok i noe the poem sux and all.. u ppl can put down all ur comments on the taggy lyk my daughter did there alrite?? ---->

well the past few daes have been alrite.. ive been for golf training the first time this year.. 2005... well hmm.. that nite i went to melvin's hse for a "gathering" / CNY party lar.. then erm.. nt very fun there lar... is lyk... i dunno wadda do lar.. as i anticipated that... my godsis agreed to keep my company throughout the whole nite!! till i was bac hme .. =D aint she great?? :D:D:D hahs.. was so happy lar.. hahs.. then the sky that nite was so beautiful.. brite stars were making a circle around the brite moon lor... >.< so nice... if only there was the rite company lor.... =D ok fine.. so i left there late lar.. so hme late.. then nxt dae damn tired so and so.. then i came up wif the poem yestd lar.. so. COMMENTS!!! thnx...

2005-02-20T05:11:00.000-08:00

The Worst Poem Ever

all around there was food and drinks
many friendly faces and friendly winks
its feels as though there was sweat in my hands,
it was weird too, as fun was all around.
perhaps i was just too tense,
thus the fun could not be found.

i felt like a liar,
hiding the scars on my hand,
standing with my friends round a campfire.
for i hope not they find out, my wishes of death,
and hope that we will be friends till the end.

Felix Lee

muahaha

2005-02-11T20:29:00.000-08:00

im evil.. i noe i am.. jus when the whole world cmes to noe abt my new blog add.. i change it!!!1 MUAHAHAHA.. for those tt are in here.. u shud now tt i changed it to bondz-0f-reas0n1ng hehe :D:D i noe im evil.. tons hve told me tt.. bt i realli dun wan many ppl to noe abt my blog u see.. so plz dun link me yar??

hahs.. ok wadz been goin on.. my daughter has been callin me lazi pig... i gt a new god-sis!!! hahs.. her name is jane and hmm she is in CANOEING! haha.. yar.. and yar.. i called my god-sis shir on cny eve.. hahs.. u dunno how it felt to call her.. nt bein able to hve ani communication wif her for smetime.. cuz i tink she blked me frm msn.. >.< bt nvm.. hahs.. she actualli forgt hu i am ok.. hahs.. then yar.. got 10th at a laser race.. jus bhind marc tayz.. hahs..

on cny eve.. we had the WORST evr celebrations.. bcuz it was freakin messy.. bx had his phone confiscated and had to do CIP to get it bac.. aft celebrations.. we went down to safra tamp.. k so we went there and bowled.. well.. mike came soon aft us.. caught us hvin lunch there.. then erm.. yar we bowled.. then my daughter and cl appeared.. screwin my game.. hahs.. then erm.. yar.. my other daughter and god-sis arrived wif nalz.. then they all chat plae while we bowled.. hahs.. yar...

tts abt all i gotta sae sia.. best few moments.. hahs.. thnx for viewin my blog.. plz dun link yar??

luv u ppl may the world b wif u.. :D

IT IS ENUFF ALREADI!!!!

2005-01-21T05:47:00.000-08:00

i have had it wif my parents!!!! DAMN ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN THEY UNDERSTAND THAT I HATE SAILING?!

I HATE SAILING!

NT CLEAR ENUF?!?!

I HATE SAILING I HATE SAILING I HATE SAILING!

IS THT CLEAR ENUFF?!

HOW CAN U SIGN ME UP FOR SMETHIN WITHOUT ASKING ME?!

I DUN CARE ABT OTHER SAILORS!

I WANT MY CHILDHOOD! MY FREEDOM!

IS TT TO MUCH TO ASK OF U?!

FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!!!! I AINT YOU

AND I WILL NVR B!!!

CANT U UNDERSTAND?! I DUN LYK TRAINING!

I AM NOT U?!

DAMN U ALL!!!!

AS OF THIS MOMENT FELIX LEE WEN FENG DOESNT BLIEVE IN LOVE OR LIKE!!!!!!

NO ONE NOT EVR !!!!

HELPING OTHERS BUT HARMING THYSELF

I HATE THIS!!!!

I DUN CARE IF I DIE A LONELY MAN!!

SO LONG AS I DUN SUFFER THIS WAY!!!!

I HATE U ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe

2005-01-18T05:39:00.000-08:00

nt been bloggin for smetime.. hahaz.. then my god-daughter complainin in the tag board le.. sighz.. hahz.. ok.. ppl .. i officially changed my web to http://narumi-ayumo.blogspot.com !!! and if u wanna noe hu he is.. add me on lonely_loid@hotmail.com on MSN messenger and see his pic!!! haha.. he is jus the coolest detective!!!

hahz. ok. hmm.. wad has happened.. yar.. sme idiot named CHAU CHING TO went to nominate me to be councillor.. so i hve to go for interview.. nevertheless i will try my bez for the interview and pray hard not to go in.. cuz i tink the requirements quite high lar.. then ... hmm.. i was the chairperson for todaes assembly lor.. >.<>.<

then hmm wad else.. yar!!! went out wif mike and my two god-daughters on SAT hahaz.. tt was a fun dae sia.. kena scolded by yuntong.. she sae i tok too loudly in the cinema.. >.< bt fact is the movie hvnt start yet lor!!!! wah lieu.. ahhz.. then hmm.. yar went to louisa's house to erm.. sit and sit and sit lar.. then sit for quite smetime liao the gers gt bored of playing the com and chattin online then we all sat at the "round table" and were lyk... erm.. SILENT.. hahz.. then the silence was scary.. hahz.. so yuntong decided to plae wif her 7250i and started taking pics lar.. since we were all so bored.. i took out my 6260 and aso took photos.. hahz.. bt i didn noe wad they tokin abt lar.. was listenin to mp3 on my phone.. the volume too loud i guess.. cuz i could see them laughin.. bt nt noe wadz goin on... hahz.. then tt nite i went for bowlin comp.. ahhz.. first comp of the year.. hehe.. hmm scored quite well lar.. wif handicap i scored an avg 147 per rd.. =D nt bad eh.. means ard 122 w/o hcp lor.. =D hahz..

i guess tts all bahz.. cuz.. hahz.. yar sat was the bez dae of the yr so far...

haiz.....

2005-01-04T05:27:00.000-08:00

haiz... tis is bad.. hols ended... schools started..... >.< so borin!!!! life sux... sigh...

haiz.. hmm.. wadda sae leh.. lets sae about my GD start to this new yr ok? hahz.. hmm.. yar.. 1st jan 2005 went playin lan wif leon mike and nicholas chin.. played lan till abt 3 then went bac to nicholas house and ate lunch.. aft tt... we played halo 2 for awhile.. cuz leon had to go hme.. and i had to go cut hair.. so aft playin a few rounds of halo 2 swordfight... we all went hme alreadi.. i went to cut hair lar.. then the guy cut until so short!!! bcme mushroom hairstyle.. >.< haiz.. then erm.. yar.. aft tt go home. complain to mum tt the swell on my arm hurts.. she sae it looks infected so ask me go see doc... my dad scream at me lar... sae nvr look aft myself... sigh.. forgt him.. then erm.. yar.. went to the clinic wait wait wait.. then go in see doc

then he sae "hmm tt looks lyk a veri bad infection.. theres alot of pus inside.. u can choose which wae u wanna deal wif it. first take antibiotics for a wk then see how isit. second we cut the swell and squeeze out all the pus"

i didn noe which would b betta.. so i didn realli care lar.. jus ask my mum lor... is lyk... hmm.. she said go wif the cutting.. then ok lor go cut lor.. i mean they will numb my arm b4 the cut right??? RONG!!! they NVR numb my arm at all b4 they cut the swell.. so it was VERI VERI pain.. damn.. lucky i didn scream.. all i did was said "ouch" softly.. bt sheesh it hurts!!! sIgH!!!!! then the doc put plaster on the wound then sae "u gotta come bac tmr so tt we can redress ur wound"
so i had to go see doc on sat, sun, mon and todae.. sigh.. bt todae the doc sae can wait till thurs then meet him again lor.. so hehe.. tts GOOD.. hahz.. bt i scared needa cut again.. i alreadi got cut twice... >.< sigh... kk im goin off now.. spk more later...

hehe haha

2004-12-28T01:40:00.000-08:00

hehe haha.. hvnt update for quite awhile eh... haha.. been bz collectin prezzies.. =D hahz.. hmm.. lifes borin lar.. hehe.. went to quizilla todae.. muahahah... theres my result...

You are so not a lover kind of person! You can't
really fall in love yet because either your not
ready or you just don't like the consept or
maybe you've been hurt once. Whatever the
reason you should let it hold you back on love
or anything else! It's not worth it!

*UPDATED* What kind of love are you? ( COOL anime pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla

Your Hidden Power Is Wind

You have a twisted soul. You change your
directions and mind easily. Your beauty is you
over powering feature. But many enemies are
surprised by your beauty and your great power
to control wind

Gem Stone: Amethist, Eye
Color:Grey Blue,Hair Color:Grey that
goes to your shoulder Blades

Quote:And if the cloud bursts, thunder
in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different
tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.
brought to you by Quizilla

hehe

2004-12-24T06:11:00.000-08:00

hmm.. looks lyk 3 or 2 daes since i las updated eh.. hahz.. hmm.. todae nth much happened.. jus went to plae basketball wif nick and mike.. then made a few new frenz... it was a REALLI borin christmas eve lorx.... and hm.. yar,.. jus a "warnin" DUN ask me to update horx.. i mean sch term is beginnin so i mite nt b so efficient in the updatin.. bt i will still update once in a while...

sigh

2004-12-21T05:28:00.000-08:00

ok ermz.. wadda sae.. hmm.. todae was sad lar... i whole dae no one to chat wif.. haiz... the ppl tt i alwaes chat wif.. nt hme or nt able to use a computer... so sigh... so erm.. nvm lar... haiz.. still sad... haiz.. then todae trainin was crap lor.. i was so tired... my triceps hurt lyk crap!!!!! then gotta do 12km of paddlin.. siao lor.. damn tired... =(.. sigh.. todae will b veri short....

~~AnGeL.tEaR~~

y IsIt Tt I aM aLwAeS rOnG!!!!!

2004-12-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

kk erm.. todae was a bad dae.. bt someone cheered me up in the end.. ^v^... k erm.. todae.. erm.. ANIMAX PREVIEW!!! i get to watch animax for THE WHOLE OF THIS WK!!!! ARGH!!! tts lyk so COOL!!! hahaz.. so of cuz i started the dae happi lar.. then went for trainin.. todae was swimmin trainin lor.. so swim 10 laps front crawl lar.. bt hor.. dunno y lar... i swim front crawl abt 3 laps le hor.. my stomach area suddenly VERI VERI VERI VERI VERI pain.. almost fainted.. bt contd trainin lor.. haiz.. at least now nt much pain le.. hehe.... k erm.. wad else.. yar.. i came home.. met my sis.. (older onex) found out they buy present for my younger sis for christ.. so ask me if wanna chip in abit.,.. i cme home.. wanna chip in tt time.. wanna see wad they bought.. MY YOUNGER SIS SCOLDED ME! WADDA HELL!!! wanted to help out.. then she gotta go ruin my dae EVEN MORE!!! SO HU CARES ABT HER NOW!!!! haix.. ok tts all tt happened todae.. hmm... yar.. tts all.. hahz...

~~AnGeL.tEaR~~

AnGeL's DeViL

2004-12-19T04:55:00.000-08:00

hmm... nt bad.. nt bad.. i aint tired of bloggin yetz... haha... hmm. well.. how was the dae.. well.. erm... lets see... ate a heavy breakfast and lunch.. then ermz... yar.. i went ovr to the basketball court bhind mike's house... cuz some idiot named NICHOLAS TAN asked us to go down there for a basketball game... then.. ok.. went there at 3.. where he said the game will b... waited there for him to show up.. hmm.. 3 rite.. was chattin on the fone wif a fren.. wah.. chat until veri shuang.. hahz.. bt enuff abt tt.. i waited till abt 3.30... then i decided to put down the fone lar... so erm.. yar.. put down the fone.. and called mike.. then mike came down.. and we played basketball for abt half an hour lar.. and hor... dunno if it is my NEW throwin style or luck.. bt i scored quite alot todae... haha... accuracy was veri high for me on my part.. except under the basket.. sigh.. oh yea. then aft basketball.. mike invited me up his hse.. to see the sprites for RO chars tt i dun hve!!! argh... nvm.. then go there.. saw his mum his dad and his bro.. hahz.. his bro reminds me of my sis.. walk in the hse.. get rdy.. wait for fren... then aft tt walk out and go out wif frenz.. hahz.. then erm.. yar.. his mum lemme try sme carrot cake.. erm.. not the chai dao gui u ppl eat at hawker centres.. is those hong kong type of carrot cake.. the one wif roasted nuts... and chilli/ketchup... yar tt... she kept askin me if i lyked it.. hahz.. i told her yes... bt seriously... its nice... it shud appeal to the greater crowd lar.. hahz.. yar.. then aft tt came hme and end of todae's highlights.. hahz... ok.. signin off...

~~AnGeL.tEaR~~

AnGeL's DeViL

2004-12-18T08:42:00.000-08:00

hmm.. yar im done testing my site.. found out :- 1. my laptop cant tag on my board. bt my com can. 2. my test color is veri difficult to see wif my bg.

hahz.. i dun tink im gonna change anithin.... hahz.. so if u gt prob.. then.. erm.. i dunno alreadi.. srry.. ok.. tis is my official FIRST post for this blog.. gonna b updatin more than usual for tis one.. hahx.. hmm... yar.. its been a veri tirin holidae... if u sae urs is tirin cme on and see my schedule of 8 trainings per wk... muahaha.. its so cool to come bloggin again... hahz...

hmm.. yar.. i hve gt nth much to sae... so im leavin u guys off on tis point.. muahahaha ok.. erm.. i miss alot of things.. lyk gr8 food.. and actualli resting at hme... and erm.. those daes when i dun hve hwk in the dec hols.... yup yup yup...

HeLl oN eArTh

2004-12-18T06:58:00.000-08:00

wah... todae was crap.. i mean the mornin and the aftnn lar... the nite was gr8... muahahaha... ok.. gettin carried awae here.. hmm...

tis mornin.. woke up at 8 sharp.. went to watch a few cartoons... (surprised?).. hahz.. then hor... watch the shows until veri tired lar... so didn feel lyk goin for ani trainin... then suay suay todae aftnn got sailin trainin lar... down dere i tryin to bargain wif my parents.. to lemme stae hme and res... bt all else failed... then i gt my worst nitemare... my mum told me i gotta continue sailin trainin into nxt yr... WTH!!!!! i thot tis yr end liao lor.. then my father go buy a boat.. so muz contd... wah lau eh... where do i find the time?!?! haiz... then nvm lor... go trainin... rig up my laser... (full rig) then ready go out sail le... look up in the sky.. wah kaoz.. storm clouds approachin... then the wind was dead... when the coach finally arrive and we all go launch and train tt time... BOOM.. the wind picked up lyk mad... i would sae it was easily 6-7 knots lor.. a 62kg 13yr old boi.. sailin a laser full rig in 6-7knots of wind equals to lotsa hardwork and heavin-to...

so trainin was hard.. and lotsa shocks abt sailin todae... bt.. todae is the las trainin of tis yr.. so its alrite.. until january cmes tt is...bt went hme to a gr8 christmas party.. hahz.. abit early ritez... bt my relatives nxt wk cant celebrate wif us.. so tis wk lorx.... hahz.. gr8 party.. altho i didn eat full enuf.. sigh... now damn hungry.. hahz... kk gonna eat later... then erm.. hmm yar... my RO gt improvement.. tho the server rox alot... my crus veri hard to train lorx... got a lvl 254 wiz.. 224 assasin cross... 89 crus.. and a eh.. lvl 85 snipe.. woohoo.. hahx.. erm.. eh wad else... hmm

i miss bowlin... hahz.. brought bac my bowlin ball 2 daes ago.. stoppin trainin for awhile.. cuz the coach go to NS... then erm wad else.. hmm... i tink tis is longer then my usual blog lehx... yar... i miss gr8 food... hahz.. esp the turkey i ate 4hrs ago... hehe... veri nice... kk.. signin off here....

*AnGeL's DeViL*

angel tears

2004-12-17T08:44:00.000-08:00

hmm.. i jus started todae.. so muahaha.. lemme test my stuff out first yar?

`~F L Y~` away from all the pain.....~~

SLC

haish

Actual Results

Canoeing.. Fun? or Boring?

Forever Love

Strong Love????

Chronicles of Sabah

2nd wk

first wk DONE

boredom

Glitches

2006

hais

poems poems poems poems

term test.

lalala

testin

USA..

haha

answer to tags

survival

hehe

hehe haha

hahaha.. fresh beginnin.. *hint hint*

guess wad?

gettin lame again

another lame poem!!!

depression

im bored!!!1

back home

hi all

im bored!!!

hehe haha terms.. :D:D:D

hahas

muahaha

IT IS ENUFF ALREADI!!!!

I HATE SAILING!

I HATE SAILING I HATE SAILING I HATE SAILING!

hehe

haiz.....

hehe haha

hehe

sigh

y IsIt Tt I aM aLwAeS rOnG!!!!!

AnGeL's DeViL

AnGeL's DeViL

HeLl oN eArTh

angel tears

hahaha.. fresh beginnin.. hint hint